I do come back home full of pain after my thaiboxing classes are over, a tough time in the gym exhausts the muscles and makes them want to cry. Cry, yes... If only they had eyes... and why not they do have them... Your muscles, your eyes... Indeed they do want to convey a cry... They want to say "Stop it, how much more are you going to exhaust me, I just can't take it anymore", but no... You get tough and push yourself to the limits, to the best you could become and so ends my day inspite of all that I go through, I take it all and give all I've got back...

Reaching home i limp around like I have a fake leg on one side, then my mind notices that and it comes to me with it's deeper thoughts to motivate me, to inspire and make me feel better, to become what I should in order to feel good...

It tells me things like
"Why are you limping",
"Coz I'm in pain", I reply
"Is that pain painful enough... To make you walk like a looser, the world watches you and what you through to the world comes back at you... Go on, fight that pain and be more painful to 'It' instead of making 'it' painful to 'you'"... "Be painful to pain".

Soon I broke free from the pain dominating me, my walk, behaviour, speech... etc. and I got myself back to normal by beating it down, my legs moved fine and I was smiling that I gained power, control over myself...

A little war within myself organised things not just internally but externally as well... For how can a deseased person be ready to face any challenge that approaches from an external source unless or untill he's done with all internal problems.

Indeed, similar to "practice what you're going to preach before you start to preach and make it a practice" and similar to "Fix yourself before fixing others"... Indeed, the source of all pain is within us... The world is a mirror, a little struggle to contain things and to make them proper within ourselves would make us at peace with ourselves, and so we can emit that all around...

Emission leads to reflections, and yes we can chose and modify what we want to emit... Just listen to what's happening within yourselves, feel... Be concerned and be the master... Not the slave...

Who wouldn't want to be given a reign over things, we're all given that property on which we could reign... We want people to rule, we want properties to possess, but it's ourselves that we should in the beginning, and us in the end...

"Master of self is a master of all"...

Best of regards

Tyrant lover...
The slave of God, the free man...



I thank the Almighty and Merciful Lord for all the gifts and blessings that he showers upon me each moment of each day, all praise and thanks to him, he enabled me with everything that I can, he's the power behind what I do, he gave me all I have... I thank him and praise him, the almighty and ask him to send his peace and blessings upon prophet mohamed and his family and followers. Oh lord, please forgive me and all your believers, please forgive me and all your believers, please forgive me and all your believers.

Amen